About a week ago I hit a wall. I felt incredibly alone, unloved, unwanted, and misunderstood. It’s during these moments (days or weeks), when I feel like God doesn’t care; like He’s not listening to my cries or see my tears. I feel like He’s walked away during my time of need.
Then I remembered that His word says:
And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow–not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. (Romans 8:38)
And I realized that He’s always with me, no matter how I feel. If I feel alone, I’m not alone, because He’s right there beside me! If I feel unloved, I’m not unloved, because He loves me! If I feel unwanted, I’m not unwanted…He sent His son to die on a cross for me because He wants me! And I’m not misunderstood; He alone, understands, my hurts, fears, and deepest desires.
I am truly blessed to have a relationship with the most loving, loyal, wise, and intimate friend a person can ever have.
When I look at your heavens, the work of your fingers, the moon and the stars, which you have set in place, what is man that you are mindful of him, and the son of man that you care for him? (Psalm 8:3-4)
I could have written this….tonight. This week has been a very trying week for me, well honestly, these past four months have been the most trying times of my life. I DO feel like God is missing; and honestly, I know He’s not, but I also know that He can remain silent sometimes. I don’t understand though why those times seem to always be the times I think I need to hear them the most.
Remember, that’s what faith is all about…Not being able to see/feel something, yet knowing that it’s there (see Hebrews 11:1). But I also feel that when we feel as though He’s missing we should seek Him out, because His Word also says if we earnestly seek Him, we’ll find Him (Jeremiah 29:13).